tittle is useless
This medium yet has been swept to aside again. I was just a matter of the inconvenience state of thought.
It takes only one word or one gesture to evoke a string of emotions, thoughts and also to make you go crazy all week long. i just makes u twitch if the same gesture/word are repeated over and over again.
I do understand that it has always been my fault and you are never wrong. Hence since I'm not a fond supporter in confrontation, I choose to shut my mouth coz my words will never make you see myself as a better anyways so why bother.
Every time you see me, I'd be doing the same thing. Being a well trained and experience professional in assuming, I'm doing the same thing ALL the time. I wish I was that shallow. and I wish I was that person who really does that thing.
This thought spoils my emotion. I can't really have a logic thought process to do my work. And all I could think of is whining all this gibberish. I wonder where that I get this skill from.
All the thing that I thought I'm not, It's becoming more and more the opposite. That makes it clear why I'm not in any relationship.
The expectations is always high even so they claim it's not. They even can't have a convincing smile to show their trust.
What I do will never right, it's never your fault;
Always trust you, my opinion is never to be accepted;
when I ask a question, I'm threating, when you ask, your answer should be my answer.
So I choose not the say much. I try to occupy as minimal space as possible (something that I'm failing miserably). No matter what I do, I'll never satisfy your expectations. It's draining me and I'm tired of doing even anything.
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.aris out...
It takes only one word or one gesture to evoke a string of emotions, thoughts and also to make you go crazy all week long. i just makes u twitch if the same gesture/word are repeated over and over again.
I do understand that it has always been my fault and you are never wrong. Hence since I'm not a fond supporter in confrontation, I choose to shut my mouth coz my words will never make you see myself as a better anyways so why bother.
Every time you see me, I'd be doing the same thing. Being a well trained and experience professional in assuming, I'm doing the same thing ALL the time. I wish I was that shallow. and I wish I was that person who really does that thing.
This thought spoils my emotion. I can't really have a logic thought process to do my work. And all I could think of is whining all this gibberish. I wonder where that I get this skill from.
All the thing that I thought I'm not, It's becoming more and more the opposite. That makes it clear why I'm not in any relationship.
The expectations is always high even so they claim it's not. They even can't have a convincing smile to show their trust.
What I do will never right, it's never your fault;
Always trust you, my opinion is never to be accepted;
when I ask a question, I'm threating, when you ask, your answer should be my answer.
So I choose not the say much. I try to occupy as minimal space as possible (something that I'm failing miserably). No matter what I do, I'll never satisfy your expectations. It's draining me and I'm tired of doing even anything.
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.aris out...
I Did Something
Earlier on Friday 15th May 2009. I did something. People will question with my action, hence these would be my prepared answer for me to choose from;
1) Why? Why not!
2)It's healthy to do something out of the norm once a day.
3) IT's a good day to be 'bold'.
I rest my case.
Wait. One more;
4) Just simply because I can.
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.aris out!
1) Why? Why not!
2)It's healthy to do something out of the norm once a day.
3) IT's a good day to be 'bold'.
I rest my case.
Wait. One more;
4) Just simply because I can.
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.aris out!
Noodles & Curry
Coming from a place where both of these materials came from opposite sides of the trading route really gives me the opportunity to experience the uniqueness of how tradition evolves.
Here I am, sitting on a uniformed black chair while resting my arms on a bright orange table taking in the mix aroma and the serene melody of the food being prepared upon request is a true blessing that I am lucky to be where I am at this very moment. It may be a common scene, but if you think of it most food parlour you go, the meals are prepared elsewhere or maybe in Japan, the sitting arrangements would circle around the kitchen. It is unique where I am now, surrounded by kitchen.
The honest and humble nature of preparing a meal is felt 360 degrees. May it be the sound of water boiling, the aroma of the garlic caremelizing or the intensity of the cluncking wok and the sight of satified face enjoying the meal. Where did all came from?
Is it a tradition somewhere?
Or a culture we are nuturing?
An untraced heritage along our bloodline?
Could it be a custom in a written law?
Whichever way it was beautifully sculptured, it feels good to live the moment. One day at a time. It's hard but I have to make it a habit.
Okay. How noodle and curry came together, I still have no idea. Probebly it was; to win both the Emperors' and the Rajahs' heart was thru their stomach. So by fusing both of their proud produce, it's a definate win-win situation.
LOL!
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.aris out~
Restoran Jamal, Kelana Jaya
20:32 Wed, 6 May 09
Here I am, sitting on a uniformed black chair while resting my arms on a bright orange table taking in the mix aroma and the serene melody of the food being prepared upon request is a true blessing that I am lucky to be where I am at this very moment. It may be a common scene, but if you think of it most food parlour you go, the meals are prepared elsewhere or maybe in Japan, the sitting arrangements would circle around the kitchen. It is unique where I am now, surrounded by kitchen.
The honest and humble nature of preparing a meal is felt 360 degrees. May it be the sound of water boiling, the aroma of the garlic caremelizing or the intensity of the cluncking wok and the sight of satified face enjoying the meal. Where did all came from?
Is it a tradition somewhere?
Or a culture we are nuturing?
An untraced heritage along our bloodline?
Could it be a custom in a written law?
Whichever way it was beautifully sculptured, it feels good to live the moment. One day at a time. It's hard but I have to make it a habit.
Okay. How noodle and curry came together, I still have no idea. Probebly it was; to win both the Emperors' and the Rajahs' heart was thru their stomach. So by fusing both of their proud produce, it's a definate win-win situation.
LOL!
+++++
.aris out~
Restoran Jamal, Kelana Jaya
20:32 Wed, 6 May 09
It's ugly enough for men to fight over women, but a ball?
Watching the 2nd leg match of UEFA champions league 08/09 semi final game between Arsenal and Man.U is really depressing. The simplistic idea over the beautiful game that a bunch of men in box and brawl over a ball and to make it even worse, millions of people cry when the bunch of people that they root for didn't triumph over the ball makes the whole idea of football even absurd.
I am a football fan, as a sport and as a game. Even so, I'm disturbed by the mood swings it affects me. The best part is, the team that I root for is not even playing but it still does gives me the hate, the anger, and the anxiety.
Shit, Ronaldo just scored another. It's all over for Arsenal now. Hope is down to Barcelona or Chelsea now.
I dislike Manchester United. Although their players and Alex Furguson are world class, I hate them, the team and the name. Even typing out the team gives me the feeling of disgust. But somehow, knowing and acquainted with people who support the team, I keep my cool with them. Thank God for consciousness and common sense.
Wuhuuu!!! A red for Fletcher. Maybe there's a glimpse of hope to evade the humiliation. 1-3 now, just 4 more goals to go Arsenal.
Anything but Man.U.... Anything but them... Wuuhuuuu!!!
It's awkward to express the intense disapproval over Man.U. Back then, when I started following the English football league, I never would visioned that on this day, I would have this view over the intensity of the rivalry over the two teams in England. Would the Malaysian League achieve this standard is another issue.
Ouh, its over. Barcelona/Chelsea, in you we trust.
The story over the two rivalry goes around one team brags about the colourful history it has, whereas the other them is making history while bragging about it. For the past 20 plus year Man.U under the Alex regime, he really made it clear that his vision was just to beat one team and their history. It was a laughing stock when he first (or ever) said that, but his achievements now proves who has the last laugh. Damn. I couldn't believe I just wrote that.
I need to cool down, hopefully tomorrow's game will give better insight over the final.
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.aris out!
"You'll never walk alone"
I am a football fan, as a sport and as a game. Even so, I'm disturbed by the mood swings it affects me. The best part is, the team that I root for is not even playing but it still does gives me the hate, the anger, and the anxiety.
Shit, Ronaldo just scored another. It's all over for Arsenal now. Hope is down to Barcelona or Chelsea now.
I dislike Manchester United. Although their players and Alex Furguson are world class, I hate them, the team and the name. Even typing out the team gives me the feeling of disgust. But somehow, knowing and acquainted with people who support the team, I keep my cool with them. Thank God for consciousness and common sense.
Wuhuuu!!! A red for Fletcher. Maybe there's a glimpse of hope to evade the humiliation. 1-3 now, just 4 more goals to go Arsenal.
Anything but Man.U.... Anything but them... Wuuhuuuu!!!
It's awkward to express the intense disapproval over Man.U. Back then, when I started following the English football league, I never would visioned that on this day, I would have this view over the intensity of the rivalry over the two teams in England. Would the Malaysian League achieve this standard is another issue.
Ouh, its over. Barcelona/Chelsea, in you we trust.
The story over the two rivalry goes around one team brags about the colourful history it has, whereas the other them is making history while bragging about it. For the past 20 plus year Man.U under the Alex regime, he really made it clear that his vision was just to beat one team and their history. It was a laughing stock when he first (or ever) said that, but his achievements now proves who has the last laugh. Damn. I couldn't believe I just wrote that.
I need to cool down, hopefully tomorrow's game will give better insight over the final.
+++++
.aris out!
"You'll never walk alone"
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